That dreadful meeting

The first year I was called in for the review, my legs feel like jelly because I didn'tknow what to expect and was also excited about the prospect of a pay rise.

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The second year I was called in for the annual review, my legs still felt like jelly,but I wasn't expecting a pay rise because of the recession.I was called in last simply becausemy supervisor wanted to hear from me, what I thought about the on-going issue within my department.Again, I could have used it at my advantage-which includes people-bashing and self-appreciating, but I remained professional, and touched on things that I felt were truly necessary. So I didn't touch about my geli mat mat issue about the person across from me, because that's too personal.I swear for thenext Kris Kringle (or Kindle in certain countries), I will get him a set of cotton buds.

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And today, my boss just sent in an email for our review (he usually tells us in advance),but today came as a surprise. I'm having that same butterfly feelings in the pitof my stomach, wondering if he'll tell me that he knows that I access Gmail chatsometimes. Or that he knows I have been emailing KK to gossip about work in Malay.I'm just afraid that he'll print our emails and question me what cina korek hidungduduk sebelah kau means. I could lie and say that it means I think Gold prices inChina is going up, but what if my translation and KK's are different?I will have to think of something really quick. Something that will save my ass if the question is eventually asked.



But what do I answer if he tells me that he knows that I have this blog?Erkkkthat will be the end of coffeeandcurls then, I must say.Bai, babai babai now(matsalleh suka ckpbye bye laju2 banyak2 kali. it feels like they can't wait to put down the phone!)

Performance appraisal.

You know how when your overly motivated Parents tell you that the positive will come from the negative one day and you think, yeah ha, that's just parents trying to be parents?

Sh.amimi interacts efficiently with co-workers and third parties and succeeds in getting parties to agree with minimal effort.

Her efforts have been very instrumental in team bonding as has been relied on as a perfect support link between members of the team.

I got a 5 star rating under my interpersonal skills. Remember how I whine and complain about that Chinese Dude who gets on my nerves while he slowly digs for his "gold"? We've had issues with this guy before and my supervisor told us that at a team level we must do something to improve the situation. Well it was really between the Chinese Dude and the other guy. So childish kan.

I know sometimes I do it half-heartedly because this dude does not give two hoots about trying to change himself BUT I have a lot of self-pity towards others. I know myself too well, I cannot be mean to others for too long because I believe in Karma. You get what you give back.

So sometimes no matter how pissed I am with this dude, I will still help him out, but before being sarcastic. And then I will feel reaally bad, and will usually end up showing him where and how to get information. So teruk, tak ikhlas, BUT, kau dah kerja 2 tahun lebih kot and I am only human.

Anyway all the negativity and all my separuh keikhlasan menolong this guy and being the only person in the team who talks to him about errr Chinese TV series and football (what do I know about football?) got me one 5 star rating on my appraisal. So it works both ways, I get good review, and your life in the office becomes bearable. I learned by eavesdropping (he sits across from me) that he got separated from his wife and his daughter is in China now. So that's the only reason why I have this kesian lah kat kau ni mamat.

Lepas tu, dia ada hati tanya I, kenapa dia punya performanc review tak dapat above expectation or beyond!! I almost died when he had the guts to question me that. Tak sedar diri betul. Seriously dude, aku pun tak expect nak dapat above expectation every year, kau nak above expectation or beyind???